Just a poorly drawn carrot writing about life and stuff she cares about
Life is hard for me today. I feel exhausted and sad and I’m waiting for the wave of darkness, that has been looming right under the surface of the past weekend’s busyness, to swallow me whole. Don’t get me wrong, my weekend was awesome! I spent most of it with lovely people and didn’t even … Continue reading Connection to Self
It’s almost 1 a.m. and I can’t for the life of me convince my brain to go to sleep, even though I’m tired and have been feeling rather exhausted for most of the day (from a lack of quality sleep from the nights before, duh). What does Brian have to do with that, you ask? … Continue reading Late Night Musings of Brian
It’s that time of the year again, when everyone feels the need to reflect on their accomplishments of the year and draw conclusions about where to go from there. For me, it’s not just the end of the year 2019 but also the start of my thirty-second year on Earth and I never quite know … Continue reading Thirty-One
When I woke up this morning, something just didn’t feel right. I was hurting and sad and I didn’t quite know why. Right before waking up, I had a dream in which I heard my toaster beep (I have one of those super fancy toasters that don’t scare the hell out of you by catapulting … Continue reading Blast From the Past
The other day I went for an after-work drink with friends at a “beach” (AKA a pile of sand dumped on the concrete in front of an office building) in Luxembourg City. We talked about how it’s considered normal to think about our work situation when asked if we’re feeling stressed because “being stressed” generally … Continue reading Choice Paralysis
Today’s Monday. Like a tremendous number of other people (and Garfield), I don’t like Mondays. It’s not even a regular Monday, it’s actually a day off. A bank holiday, as the British would call it. But still, I feel tired. To be fair, I didn’t get as much sleep over the weekend as I’d have … Continue reading Monday Struggles
About a year ago, my main text rant buddy introduced me to the notion of attachment theory by recommending an audio book with the title “Attached: The New Science of Adult Attachment and How it Can Help You Find – and Keep – Love” by Amir Levine and Rachel Heller. I was sceptical at first, … Continue reading The Attachment Pandemonium
I stumbled upon the concept of emotional (un-)availability a few days ago and it really resonated with me. I’m always amazed when something I’ve been experiencing in some form or another can be put into words and even has its own name. (BTW*, I don’t know what all these sudden mind-blowing realisations of mine are … Continue reading The Emotion Fortress
Do you know the kind of loneliness that hits you in the middle of the day? Not the one you occasionally feel at night when you’re home alone, but the one that strikes in the middle of an activity? No? Lucky you! In that case, like many of the things I write, the following may … Continue reading Lonely Times
I’m back in my bubble. What’s the bubble, you may ask? It’s my safe space. It’s where I go when the world is too much, it’s the one spot where no one and nothing can hurt me. My bubble isn’t quite bulletproof but I’d say it’s pretty close to that. You might think that the … Continue reading The Bubble
Carrot Days 